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Over the River and Through the Wood — January 22, 2020

Over the River and Through the Wood

Like so many, my mental health story has its twists and turns. I’ve experienced incorrect diagnosis, unsuccessful treatment, successful treatment, relapse, and recovery.

After my recovery in 2018 from extream PTSD symptoms, I began working briefly in behavioral health. However, I was left a bit disenchanted with the process. I didn’t lose hope in the process. However, I had to redefine my place in it. I don’t regret the education and experience I gained. If nothing else, it has helped me share my story in a healthy and hopeful way. I have my toolbox of coping skills, and I love sharing my story through my art. Recovery looks different for everyone, but I feel it was not the right decision for me to continue in the field for my mental health.

I spent the better parts of the last two years trying to find myself again, and move past the perceived failures. Failure is difficult for anyone. It’s not uncommon to start a new path. However, I have not always felt so rational about it over the last few months.

Iโ€™ve done a lot of growing. Iโ€™ve had some setbacks, needing to cut off some toxic and unhealthy relationships. I used to be very concerned with maintaining my independence, not wanting to depend so heavily on my husband or anyone else. The truth is, I never lost my independence. Depending on others has always scared me. Now I realize that Instead of working on that, I was trying to do everything on my own. I’m learning to trust again.

I’m going to be moving soon, and I’m excited to have a fresh start in a new city! I am very fortunate to have the love and support of my family to pursue my dreams. I’m a mother again, and I’ve settled back into being at home with both of my children. I’m learning that we all need a little help sometimes.

While I want to focus more on my physical health, my overall mental health is better, and I am not experiencing many of the symptoms of my PTSD. I am in recovery now, but it is okay to seek help and treatment if I need it in the future. Finding what works for you is what’s important.

Happy Days Ahead — January 17, 2020

Happy Days Ahead

I never thought I would be a mom. It’s something I always wanted, but due to my health, I never really thought it would be. After eight years, my husband and I started planning different goals, but the universe had other plans.

My children are both kinship adoptions, meaning they are both related to my husband. We adopted my daughter officially on January 14th and her brother about seven years ago. While it is different than other types of adoption, kinship adoption is challenging in its way, but also very rewarding.

As a Christian Omnithiest*, I am reminded of Sarah and Abraham, who, In the bible, are said to be quite old when they have children. We’ve started a bit late, but everyone’s path is different. We’re happy together as a family.


Omnitheismย is the belief that all religions contain a core recognition of the same god.

Customer Review — January 12, 2020

Customer Review

I started cosplaying this year, to get my mind off of things. It’s something fun to do, now that I’m a stay-at-home parent again. My husband noticed how therapeutic it’s been for me, and got me a wonderful Christmas gift!

I don’t use a lot of makeup. Honestly, I don’t even know much about makeup. I lost my mom when I was 15, and it just wasn’t a priority for me. So it’s exciting to have multiple pallets to experiment with now. The closest I’ve gotten to elaborate makeup is painting my dolls, which I liken to doing makeup. ๐Ÿ˜ณ

They offer a small bottle of brush cleaner free with new reviews, so I decided to do a review of the makeup I got since I enjoy it so much. I had to re-submit my review though. It took Amazon a bit longer than I anticipated to post my review. I share the account with my family, but I am interested in the influencer program! We do a lot of shopping with Amazon.

I’m part of #SHANYnation now, and you can check that hashtag to see new looks from me and others on Instagram! ๐Ÿ™‚

Year-End Wrap Up: 2019 — December 31, 2019

Year-End Wrap Up: 2019

My 2018 was difficult. I left a career in mental health, and that was the right thing to do for me, but it was still a hard adjustment to make. I had put a lot of time and energy into it. I honestly wasnโ€™t sure what I wanted to do next, and Iโ€™m glad I had the support of my family to focus on myself and my wellness.

In February, I became a stay-at-home mom again. The arrival of my daughter was such a blessing. Sheโ€™s my second [kinship] foster child (soon to be adopted). I was able to focus on her and our bonding time.

I found myself with a lot more free time now, however. I found a lot of my old hobbies reminded me too much of work and didnโ€™t enjoy them as much. I wanted to try something new and didnโ€™t create much art this year.

I started using the app Tiktok (formerly Musically). I wasnโ€™t sure what I wanted to do with it, so I spent the first month watching other peopleโ€™s content. Gradually I started getting into cosplay. Since I have foster children, I always try to be safe online. Iโ€™ve made a few friends and have found a few people I enjoy interacting with there. I have found the experience very therapeutic. I have even started sharing some of my drawings and my doll hobby there as well.

My husband has been fully supportive,
even surprising me with cosplay items and makeup!

I canโ€™t say I know what I want to do next just yet, but I am enjoying focusing on my art. I really enjoy making content, and blogging, so I definitely plan to continue with both.
Weโ€™re planning on moving soon, and I think thatโ€™s the fresh start I really need.


The Highlights:

๐Ÿ‘ถ๐Ÿพ I welcomed my second child
๐ŸŽต I joined Tiktok and started cosplaying
๐ŸŽจ I created 15 new drawings
๐ŸŽฎ I spent 33 hours on Steam
๐ŸŽง I started listening to Hello from the Magic Tavern and Mission to Zyxx
๐ŸŽƒ I completed #Inktober and #Dolltober respectively
๐Ÿ“ท I traded in my Canon Rebel T6 for a Pixel3a


Questions for the reader:

  • Is there anything youโ€™re looking forward to next year?
  • Anything stand out in your 2019?
It's Startin' to Look Like Santa Time — December 18, 2019

It's Startin' to Look Like Santa Time

My family and I do a lot together around the holidays. Our favorite family activity is driving around looking at lights! We always enjoy a nice drive, but it’s always extra special this time of year. My husband usually bakes us a treat, last weekend it was fudge, and we snuggle in the warm car and listen to Christmas music.

I love celebrating many holidays and traditions this time of year! One year I spent Hanukkah with some friends, and have enjoyed the local Diwali celebration! I am fascinated with how culture and family are celebrated around the world, and I will celebrate with anyone devouring good food!

Another thing I enjoy this time of year is scary stories! You might not think the Christmas season is a time for fright, but I enjoy it so much! I most revel in tales of Krampus and other long-forgotten holiday spirits. Mythology, in general, fascinates me, and I have a few podcasts that I really enjoy.


๐ŸŽง Podcasts I Enjoy: (Especially this time of year!)

My favorites list is a lot longer, and maybe I’ll do a post on the ones I find most enjoyable.

These podcasts have fun holiday episodes:


Questions for the reader:

  • Do you have any holiday traditions or things you look forward to?
  • Would you recommend any other podcasts?
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